my one and only wish.

‘if u have 0ne wish and u cant wish f0r m0re wishes, what will u wish f0r?’


That was 0ne 0f the questi0n that used t0 p0pped up in c0nversati0n with my friends. My usual answer w0uld be the same 0ld dull 0ne,


"I wish I was never b0rn."


It used t0 startle s0me 0f my friends, s0me th0ught I was adistic pers0n but I c0uldnt care less. N0 0ne has stepped int0 my sh0es and lived my life the way I had truggled pass thr0ugh it.


Yeah, I kn0w, s0me pe0ple had it harder than me but s0 what?


N0 suffering is similiar, s0 n0ne 0f it sh0uld be br0ught up0n justificati0n.


I knew h0w much I had wanted t0 run away, h0w many times I had went t0 bed h0ping that I will wake up t0 a perfect life, h0w 0ften I had spent the day w0ndering h0w w0uld things be if I did n0t exist and s0 I keep that wish in my heart, I want an escape.


Even th0ugh I knew there w0nt be any…..